Mondays

Hello to those of you who read this.

I feel like a lot of people fish the tags purely for their own exposure and like posts (I don’t know what I expected, to be honest) but I’m not saying this in a depressive way, more an ‘I should probably have known’ way.

Today has been alright; I’ve been thinking about writing poetry a lot.

Did the presentation today at uni – thoughts:

  • Time management was strained and we had a little bit too much to say
  • I felt as though there were some key points I wanted to include but didn’t
  • It marks the end of not only Early Modern Comedy seminars but Poetry, too. I don’t know if I’m glad it’s over or not; I’ve got an exam on May 17th, but I’m not worried about it. I get the questions on Monday. Better get studying Don Paterson’s Rain.

The people at uni are going out for a drink tonight and I kind of wanted to join them, celebrate finishing the presentation; but at the same time, I didn’t. I feel excluded slightly from the rest of the people at university, and I don’t know why – I do know why it’s because I like to do well and put a huge amount of effort into my work and others don’t.

This morning as well I got a leaflet through the post for 20% off on Phone Screen repairs at Carphone Warehouse, which I was pretty happy about. I’m going to use that soon.

After my presentation, I went back home and sorted through all my old Magic cards – I have a lot more than I originally thought. I knew B wouldn’t be home until about half 1 so I had time. When she got home she was upset and I feel like it’s my fault because I didn’t do my chores, but I also know she’s going through a lot lately and maybe I shouldn’t take it to heart.

B

She’s been very upset today, and now I know why – because of Jess, her sister. I’m not preserving her anonymity because, frankly, she’s a cunt. I use that word meaning every single letter of it. She went out of her way to make B upset; she created and PAID for a Blipfoto account purely to leave nasty messages to B. On Blipfoto, there is no way to block or report people, so there’s not a right lot we can do about it. I want to call them and see what options we have, but I’ll find out more soon. Might email them.

We just ordered food, there was a 20% off deal when you spend £20 so you know what I did… I ordered an unnecessary amount of food.

B likes to keep up with my posts, and I appreciate her for it. But today we had an argument about what I mean to her, which has been resolved now, but it still really upset me.

She doesn’t think I want to have a kid eventually and doesn’t know if I love her, but I do.


Fields

of love, of lust,
cherry blossom
dreams haunt them but
Not in our fields.

RB.

Long Days

Today was great; it was a long day, but a good one.

We were in Bradford today, a brilliant city with really nice (but strange) people. I know that a lot of people haven’t fundraised before and I’m going to be using some terminology in this (and future) posts:

Points – in fundraising you are not targetted on how much money you raise at all – it is an entirely points-based system. For example, 1 DD is 2 points, 1 text is 1 point.

DD – a Direct Debit; I do street fundraising and we aim to secure a long-term investment for the charity through the form of direct debits, which is why they’re worth more points.

Text – Another monthly donation; but an option with more control associated with it than a DD and usually more cost-effective for the donor.

Donor – the person agreeing to sign up for monthly donations.

Session – a segment of work; i.e. there are usually three sessions in a day with two half-hour breaks.

So, my weekly target is 12 points (6 DDs) and I managed to achieve 3 points in the very first session this morning which is better than I have ever done in a session. I was certain I was going to hit target that day which is 4 points a day (I work 3 days a week because I study alongside it) but, for whatever reason, I didn’t score again at all today. I attribute my success to beginning this blog, but it may also be the downfall. I focused too much today on adding a new post here because I was so excited to do so! However, I also think that I tried my absolute hardest today, so go figure.

B

Saturday night is date night and tonight we’re going to see the movie ‘Truth or Dare’ at the cinema, then we’re coming back for a nice relaxing night together. I’ve got a day off tomorrow but I’m hoping to spend it at the library finishing the presentation that I’ve got to do for Monday.

She’s promised me a surprise when we get back too, so I’m looking forward to that. The only thing I’m worried about is how I look because I’ve worked all day and not had the chance to get ready at all; it’s been hot and long but I don’t want that to ruin anything. I really appreciate the effort that we both put into prolonging date night.

RB.